When I decided to quit my corporate job, I was under impression that working for myself will allow me to have all the time in the world for my little baby, when I have one.
In fact, it was one of the deciding factors for me to call it quits and start my own business.
It turned out quite differently.
Even though I saved up enough to finance an extended maternity leave, I realised that there is a bigger catch – my business doesn’t run itself yet. I felt I couldn’t leave it for too long without loosing my team…
So I wonder if I did something I may regret later.
1 month after giving birth – I jumped on my first group coaching call, while Leo was playing with his granny.
Oddly, I enjoyed being ‘back into action’ so soon; and seeing glowing faces of my lovely clients again!
I started working a couple of hours a day, and 3 months after birth – went back to work pretty much part-time.
I started to experience guilt like never before!
Leo seems content to be looked after by three caregivers throughout the day, and yet these questions are swirling in my mind:
“How is this affecting my baby’s development?”
“What is the impact of it on our future relationship?”
I’m not sure if being a part-time mother to a 4-month old is a good idea…
I love my time with Leo and I also feel compelled (and excited!) to continue with my business at the same time. It gives me a lot of buzz and enjoyment too.
By now I worked through some of the feelings of guilt, as I see him enjoy playing with his favourite granny for half of the day, and dad is helping a tonne too.
After all, I’m always home and ready for another feed or to comfort him when he needs it.
And yet, I keep being haunted by this thought – am I making the biggest mistake of my life by not being there with him every waking hour of the day – while he is so so small?
Parents with businesses or busy jobs, I’d love to hear your thoughts and opinions to get my head straight on this topic.
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